Why do i want to become a lawyer? Ok, first of all, its my ambition. Since i was a kid, becoming a lawyer is all i wanted to be. Well, actually i have 3 ambitions, lawyer, doctor and teacher.
Hmmm... Since i hated science subject so much, i guest being a doctor is definitely not going to happen. Haha.. So, i have 2 ambitions left.
A teacher? Yeap, done that! Even though only for 2/3 month (i cant remember), but at least i have tried being one. Anddddd.. Yeah, it went ok. But it's an unforgettable experience. Im telling you, its scary BUT it was fun. Having your student greets you everyday. They respect you. Love you. Trust you. They take you seriously. I would like to try again someday, but not as a teacher, as a lecturer. Maybe... Who know? Huhu
Well, trying to became a lawyer is the hardest journey i ever had in my whole entire life. I have spend more then 6 years trying to fulfilled this dream. It is not easy at all... I've flung lots of papers. I've taken supplementary exam, short course. You name it. I have tried all... Seriously!
But i never give up. I am ashamed with my friends... Most of them already have a great career. But me? I'm a bit late. A bit? Huh! I guess, God have a better plan for me. Hopefully. InsyaAllah... =)
Well, back to the topic. Why i want to become a lawyer so much? Hmmm... I realize one thing tonight. People never take me seriously. They know im 27, but they definately treat me like im 17. Maybe because i act like one.. Hmm... How can i blame them.
What make me so sad is that, i cant say anything, people wont listen to my advise. Why? Because they think i know nothing. Well, FYI, i know!!! Something..! Err.. At least... LOL!
I always wanted to become a lawyer, eventhough people have told me, im not suitable for this job. Why? Because i have speech fobia (LOL does this word even exist? Haha... ) I have problems with public speaking. I'm scared of presentation. im nervous when people are paying attention to me. But that was like 6 to 7 years ago or maybe 1 year ago (Kakaka). I guess im a change person.
i always set one thing in my mind (of course, to make me less nervous). and that one thing is, We are all the same!!! We are equal. Maybe theres sthing that u r good at and im not, but im sure im good at something that you don't.
Seriously, i dont know if i can handle a case, a file, a client, another lawyer and the judges. Oh God!!! But i want to try. I want to be given an opportunity to handle a case, win a case, lose a case, all that lawyery stuff.. Hahaha...
Guess, i have to wait a little longer. I failed another subject. Evidence. How can i become a lawyer if im weak at evidence. Hmmm... I nearly give up. Im tired. You know why? Coz i've been running? From what? Nothing, coz I've been chasing my dream. But it got so far, and it makes me wanna throw up, cry, scream. I want to stop chasing. But, i guess, NOTHING CAN STOP ME FROM FULFILLING MY DREAM ha? so, i keep on chasing. im gonna win this time!
Dear God, i do hope i pass this paper, this time. I promise i try harder. I wanted to become a Syarie lawyer. I always do (well, since last year actually). Before this i always wanted to become a lawyer, but theres always a doubt. Im not good at civil and criminal. But im sure Syariah Law is the best law i've ever learn so far. I always wanted to practise syarie ever since i met with Syariah Law. its a love at first sight im sure (wink2).. It is true though. There's no law in this world can defeat Your law God. Syariah Law is the best!!!
I hope i'll be given the opportunity to practise Syariah. Especially in family matter. I always wanted to become a Penasihat Undang-undang Kekeluargaan Islam and also, i always wanted to become an 'ahli Sulh'. But i guess becoming a Syarie lawyer is more important to me right now. Help me God! Help me to fulfill my dream. Please... Aminnnnnn...
words of wisdom: Never give up on something if you think you can fight for it.
REMEMBER:"its difficult to wait but it's more difficult when you regret."
